so i’ve been doing some thinking. life is fairly busy for me now – i have an actual full time job and with it, some credibility, which is all on hold while i plow away at my internship (WHICH IS OVER IN APRIL HOORAY). but as my work load increases so do my responsibilities. and this is directionally proportionate to the amount of free time i have – as responsibility increases, free time decreases. This will require a lot out of me, physically, mentally, etc, which i would hope so since internships (also known as Careerternships) are meant to train you in your destined field one way or another. so i hate to break this to you, dear readers, yes – all three of you. i’m afraid nutrition nerd is going to have to take a hiatus for who knows how long. i’m going to be honest – i don’t have enough time or energy to post something on a normal basis. i don’t have anything super informative to tell you that could possibly enrich your life (if you want that, try zenhabits or lifehacker). my life isn’t remotely interesting at all, at least anything that goes beyond the usual, run-of-the-mill post grad in limbo, trying to improve herself one way or another.
and this has been bugging me for a while. of course I would like a blog/website that gets several hits a day. that means you’re popular among the internets and people want to hear what you have to say. in this it validates you and makes you cool. but in order to do that you have to make your blog interesting/informative to several people, all the time. and i can’t do that right now. i don’t know if i ever will. i couldn’t do it with my previous blog (it was a personal one, aimed more towards close friends, so go figure) and i shouldn’t be bummed if i can’t do it with this one. i think i’ve finally come to terms with that. i realize now that i shouldn’t bother trying to be a blog celebrity (a blogbrity?), especially if i don’t have anything good to offer. but more importantly, i shouldn’t fall into the trap that i need something like that to validate me as a writer, a health professional, and a person. God loves me regardless. I think my time will be better spent sitting at the feet of others and reading their much better blogs. Who knows, maybe my internship will be chock full of wacky adventures amidst the tube feedings and parenteral nutrition that i can talk about later (such as getting stared at by inmates during my jail rotation…fun!). i’ll probably still blog just to have a record of everything for myself, even if no one wants to read it.
just wanted to let those who read this know.